A Second Chance: One Month Later

A Second Chance coverCan you believe it’s been just over a month since I released A Second Chance? I know I can’t!

There’s not a day that goes by that I don’t wonder if this is all a dream…another figment of my wild imagination. If it is, please let me sleep. I don’t want to wake up. Right now, I’m following my dream wherever it may take me. And I couldn’t be any happier. This is one area of my life that I’m completely satisfied with, and that’s a wondrous feeling.

To say this past month has been exhilarating, as well as overwhelming, would be an understatement. I can’t even put into words what this month has meant to me, which is funny since I’m a writer. Words aren’t supposed to fail me, and yet they are. Go figure!


Would I do things differently if given the chance?

There have been times over the past month that I’ve asked myself if there are things I wish I’d done differently with A Second Chance. Yes, there have been moments where I’ve questioned whether or not I should’ve made this story a full-length novel. Or if I should have written one scene or another differently. But each one of those thoughts was fleeting because in my heart of hearts I truly feel I told the story exactly as it was meant to be told. And when I look at the final piece, I’m honestly happy with it.

Now don’t get me wrong. I’m not saying A Second Chance is perfect because I know it’s not. I don’t believe that any book is. I think there’s always room for improvement, and I know as time goes on I will make adjustments to the story here and there. But none of those future changes are going to alter how A Second Chance turned out. I won’t allow that.

This story was a labor of love. I dug down deep and used many personal experiences and emotions to create a character that was believable and relatable to others. I cried more tears than I could count while writing it. There were even times during the most emotional of scenes I even felt my heart break.

I didn’t just type empty words onto a blank screen, hoping and praying they’d resonate with readers. I actually allowed myself to become Annabelle. I allowed myself to connect with her and feel every single heartbreaking moment that she felt. I allowed myself to feel all of my old fears once again, and that took a lot out of me, but it was all worth it in the end.


Let’s Talk Sales

I don’t know about you, but every time I see a new sale show up, I let out a squeak, and I get a rolling feeling in the pit of my stomach similar to the one I get when I ride a roller coaster.

I’ll be honest, my expectations for sales for the first month were low since I didn’t know what to expect. I can say, though, that I’m not disappointed with the final total. Sure, I could have done much better; we all could our first month out. However, I didn’t expect huge sales to begin with. I knew going into this that it would take time to build up momentum, and I was okay with that, so I set my goal low. I wanted to sell 10 books for the month. And the good news is that I did. Between free copies and sales, my total for the month from Smashwords and Amazon was 40. I know 40 doesn’t sound like a lot to most people, but to me it is.

Yes, I admit I could have promoted and guest blogged more, but I work THREE jobs, and I’m a mom to two children under the age of 10. I also help out my mom a lot since she is going through some painful back problems right now. My extra time is very limited, so taking all of that into account, I did damn well this month. I honestly cannot complain.


Reviews: Yes, I Caved

Prior to the release of A Second Chance, I said I wouldn’t read any of my reviews, but I caved, as do many authors. I wanted to know if the words I wove together made an impact on anyone. I wanted to know if people were able to see the emotions I poured into every word in the story. I wanted to see if people got the message I was trying to share, so I started reading my reviews, and I’m glad I did. It seems like I’ve accomplished what I set out to do.

Almost every review I’ve read up to this point has made me cry. To know that I’ve affected people in the ways they’ve stated in their reviews makes me happy. I am so grateful that people have taken the time, both in public settings, as well as via private messaging, to share with me their thoughts on this story. As an author you want to know when your work connects with others, so I truly cherish every review and message I’ve gotten. There are some people I’m still waiting to hear opinions from because their thoughts matters to me. And hopefully one day I will hear that A Second Chance touched them in some way, too, because that’s what I want. I want everyone to take something away from it, just like I did.

Well, that’s it for now. Here’s hoping my second month ends on as high of a note as the first one did.


If you have not purchased a copy of A Second Chance and would like to, it’s currently available at Smashwords and Amazon for $.99. It will be available at Barnes & Noble, as well as other various sites in the coming weeks, so please stay tuned.

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  1. Erin says:

    And it will be given away during this week’s blog interview/giveaway on my site! 🙂

    It is a fantastic, moving story, Nicole. I honestly can’t imagine how you would want to change it. (though as an author, I also understand your constant thought that something can always be improved.) I’m proud to know you and how well you’ve been doing!

    ... on July May 16th, 2011
  2. Nikki says:

    Thanks, Erin. There’s slight wording changes that I make each time I look at it. But as far as the storyline goes, that will remain intact.

    Also, thanks for having me at your site. I’m excited.

    ... on July May 16th, 2011
  3. Allie Burke says:

    Nikki, wow.

    To read words such as–“I actually allowed myself to become Annabelle. I allowed myself to connect with her and feel every single heartbreaking moment that she felt.”–This, as a writer myself, deeply touches my heart.

    Congratulations. I am so happy for you and… very proud.
    Allie Burke recently posted..Emerald Destiny Giveaway

    ... on July May 16th, 2011
  4. Nikki says:

    Thanks, Allie. That means a lot.

    It was easy in a sense to feel Annabelle’s pain because so much of it was drawn from personal experience. I could have taken the easy route and not allowed myself to experience all of those old feelings all over again, but I didn’t. It’s not a joke when I say I cried like a baby writing parts of it. I distinctly remember tears pouring down my cheeks while writing the dialogue between Annabelle and her doctor. I could barely see the keyboard. I had to stop writing for a few and take a breather because I was that sad. Just thinking about it now makes me tear up.

    I truly hope all of that emotion comes through because I know what I put into it, and I want people to see that.

    ... on July May 16th, 2011
  5. Suzy Turner
    Twitter: suzy_turner

    A Second Chance is a beautiful story, Nikki and I could certainly feel the horrendous pain felt by Annabelle and her family. I shed a few tears myself while reading it. Congratulations on your sales and I hope this figure keeps on climbing. You deserve it!
    Suzy Turner recently posted..The cast of Raven- The Movie Hollywood are you following

    ... on July May 17th, 2011
  6. Nikki says:

    Thanks, Suzy. I hope they keep on climbing, too.

    ... on July May 17th, 2011
  7. Jenny says:

    I’m so proud of you.

    ... on July May 18th, 2011
  8. Nikki says:

    Thanks, chica.

    ... on July May 18th, 2011

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